A very blessed and strange situation is happening with my voice. I consider the whole mess a gift from God.
Among a litany of other issues, I have aphasia. That is, I have considerable challenges speaking. I have a considerable stutter. Thinking of what words to say, and how to form them no longer come naturally to me.
But, the weird thing is that when I read passages from the Bible on the Lectern at my church, my natural voice returns. I have tried this with passages from other material. But, the words still slur.
Long ago, in 2017, I was close to death. I had stopped breathing and was intubated for a few days. During the time I was out, I had a vision. I was with Christ. He took me from a place of terror to a hilltop overlooking the battle of the Revelation. Christ told me that the Word was power and could defeat the evil. He then used verses to destroy the evil demons that were slaughtering the human souls.
At the time, the reasoning of the vision was beyond my comprehension. I now believe He was urging me to be comfortable with the Bible and He would give me a blessing. Speaking and reading to the congregation, clearly and hearing my natural voice is that blessing. When I lector, I feel like it is not me speaking. I only lector every few months. But, for those five minutes, I feel truly blessed.